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Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 6:31 pm
by Miriam Bell
"Is that supposed to make me feel better?" she asks, despite the fact that it kind of does.

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 6:34 pm
by Samantha McManus
"I suppose I shouldn't expect it to get any more traction with you than anything else," she sighs.

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 6:35 pm
by Miriam Bell
"You don't need my blessing to do this, Sam."

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 7:02 pm
by Samantha McManus
"I know you worry about him as much as I do. Probably more."

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 7:13 pm
by Miriam Bell
"Or I'm just selfish and I don't want whatever that crap is to poison his opinion of me any more than it already has."

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 7:21 pm
by Samantha McManus
"...it's okay to be selfish about things like that. He's your friend."

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 7:24 pm
by Miriam Bell
Not when the question is what's best for him.

"Just go and do what you think is right, Sam. You have to tell somebody to bugger off, might as well be me."

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 7:32 pm
by Samantha McManus
"Alright, but..."

"...you don't need to avoid me, Miriam. Really."

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 7:37 pm
by Miriam Bell
"How much of that is just you feeling guilty, I wonder." she says, her mind brushing over Sam's just enough to make the implications clear that she's tempted to find out.

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 7:43 pm
by Samantha McManus
"Who wouldn't feel guilty about sticking my foot in my mouth as much as I did that night?" She asks, though something in her mind bristles at the contact.

"I was hoping we'd fix things, and all I did was make it worse between us."

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 7:52 pm
by Miriam Bell
"I could fix it. You don't have to know if it's such a burden." she says just softly enough to be kind of disturbing.

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 7:53 pm
by Samantha McManus
"Is that what you think you are to me? A burden?"

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 7:58 pm
by Miriam Bell
"I think that you feel that some of what was said the other night has made things worse and I can fix that."

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 7:59 pm
by Samantha McManus
"It wouldn't fix anything. God knows you'd probably rather I just hate you, but I can't, Miriam."

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 8:05 pm
by Miriam Bell
"This is so bloody stupid." she decides, though it's not really clear what she means.

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 8:10 pm
by Samantha McManus
"...it is what it is," she sighs, finally sitting down next to Miriam.

"I'm sorry. I really am."

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 8:14 pm
by Miriam Bell
"Whatever. It's probably just spill-over from Will anyway..." she says, resting the back of her head against the wall behind her and staring up at the roof's overhang.

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 8:18 pm
by Samantha McManus
"We're pretty much all awful at springing that on someone, aren't we?"

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 8:20 pm
by Miriam Bell
"It really shouldn't be like that though."

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 8:23 pm
by Samantha McManus
"Oh I'm sure in a perfect world we'd be making out or some shite."

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 8:26 pm
by Miriam Bell
"That's not even remotely what I meant, but I appreciate the enthusiasm in your theoretical scenarios."

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 8:28 pm
by Samantha McManus
"Well alright, finding out someone has a crush on you because she's not sure if she incited a close friend to have that same crush or vice versa is... sub-optimal."

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 8:36 pm
by Miriam Bell
"That's not..." she sighs, not really sure how to explain it. "Nobody really understands. Even between us it still gets bogged down in all these hangups and no amount of telepathy helps with that because everyone's scared of their barriers being broken down."

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 8:40 pm
by Samantha McManus
"...talking's hard, aye."

"That's... that's kind of what I found out with Murphy, too."

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 8:43 pm
by Miriam Bell
"What, wolf growls don't do well for meaningful conversations?" she says maybe a bit harsher than she intended. Though to be fair this is the last thing she wants to talk to Sam about right now and possibly ever.

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 8:46 pm
by Samantha McManus
"I'm just saying it was easier. There wasn't any misunderstanding."

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 8:49 pm
by Miriam Bell
"That's like saying it's easy not to fail at something if you just don't try in the first place. I mean... it is. Hell, maybe that is the secret. What do I know."

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 9:00 pm
by Samantha McManus
"Isn't that what you were saying, though? That it'd be easier if...?"

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 9:11 pm
by Miriam Bell
"I mean that no one's ever truly going to understand what it's like to be you. And it feels worse to be closer to that and still fail, despite the telepathy. There's barriers between all of us and either you're hurt by being kept away by them or you hurt the other by piercing through it. I've only ever met two people that wasn't true for and one turns out just turned them into a box to hide in and the other didn't really give a damn after all and just sold out to some thugs."

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 9:55 pm
by Samantha McManus
"Just... just because you shouldn't take it doesn't mean that I can't... well, give it."

She takes a deep breath, and Miriam can feel her defenses slide away. Her form quivers a bit, her skin seeming to ripple.

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 10:30 pm
by Miriam Bell
Miriam looks almost a little scared when she realizes what Sam is doing. It's quick to disappear, as most vulnerable expressions of hers tend to do but it was hard to miss.

"Jesus, Sam, you don't... you don't have to do this..." she starts but she can't help and reach out to Sam's mind with her own, too large the temptation, the chance to make a connection. She can feel Sam's mind wash over hers, sweeping her up and away from the empty void that separates people into the prisons of their minds. She's no stranger to it, but it's one thing to pay a visit, wrapped in dividing barriers wandering among paths that stretch between the mind. She knows how to forge new paths, how to affect the things just beyond the road. But now she's tumbling, away from the twisting roads and into the endless forest. It's all around her, full of countless thoughts and worries and joys and dreams and fears and faults and values. Too much to consciously take in. Too much to try and bear.

And inside herself she can feel the yearning to answer the impossible forest stretching beneath and above and around her, to turn the ephemeral dagger on herself and pierce through the barriers of her own mind. To let the shadowed columns and twisted, ivy-clad walls spread out among the ancient woods and let her own doubts and hopes and sorrows mingle with the denizens of the forest.

But as she falls and floats and glides through Sam's mind she grows scared. The shadows aren't just full of promises. They're deep and dark and might just swallow her whole. The arms of her avatar instinctively wrap herself tighter in her robes as the shadows around her grow stark and menacing, possibilities turning into uncertainties, chances turning into downfalls and the pain of letting herself go becomes too much for her to bear, too small, too scared, too alone to venture forth even when invited. She shies away and fights back against Sam's mind.

"S-stop... I just... I... I can't..." she quietly whimpers.

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 11:14 pm
by Samantha McManus
Sam shudders, and it takes her a moment to finally muster her defenses again, to fully separate her mind from Miriam's. For a fleeting moment, her facial features shift to look rather like the other girl's before she forces them back into herself.

"I... I'm sorry, I..."

"...I thought that was what you wanted."

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 11:51 pm
by Miriam Bell
"I did... I thought... I just can't do it..."

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Mon Feb 08, 2016 11:59 pm
by Samantha McManus
"But... you were in there before, aye? You were fine then."

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Tue Feb 09, 2016 12:07 am
by Miriam Bell
"Not without any barriers... And I was alright until I tried to take down mine. I wanted to but..."

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Tue Feb 09, 2016 12:08 am
by Samantha McManus
"It's... it's okay. I didn't give you any time to work up to it."

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Tue Feb 09, 2016 12:14 am
by Miriam Bell
"Y-yeah... that must be it." she tells herself more than anything. She doesn't sound very convinced and her hands are still shaking faintly.

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Tue Feb 09, 2016 12:15 am
by Samantha McManus
"I shouldn't have pushed you," she says, as she reaches out to clasp Miriam's hand.

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Tue Feb 09, 2016 12:21 am
by Miriam Bell
Miriam barely even notices until she feels Sam's hand on hers and even then she only barely glances at Sam for a second. She doesn't pull her hand away at least, though she's not really sure what to say.

"No, it's what I wanted. It's not... it's not your fault I couldn't handle it."

Re: I3 - Lonely Specter

PostPosted: Tue Feb 09, 2016 12:34 am
by Samantha McManus
"...probably just too much messed up shite in my head."