I2 - Eye of the Beholder ((open))

by **Miriam Bell** » Fri Sep 04, 2015 3:59 am

"And doing a pretty good job at it too. I'm curious though, which do you think is more scary about it, the actual intimacy or the fact that things got 'weird'." she says, actually doing the air-quotes with her fingers.

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Sep 04, 2015 6:02 pm

"Well it's just... it's a kick in the teeth to feel like you don't know yourself, aye?"

by **Miriam Bell** » Fri Sep 04, 2015 6:20 pm

"Closest most people get to that is being drunk, really. No one is ever just what they project on the surface. You've just had so much trouble with that, you think that's all there's to it and the rest got buried."

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Sep 04, 2015 8:56 pm

"Even then, it's something I hadn't realized I was doing."

by **Miriam Bell** » Fri Sep 04, 2015 11:54 pm

"You'll get used to it. Well... Your psyche is kind of unique so let's add a 'probably'."

by **Samantha McManus** » Sat Sep 05, 2015 12:15 am

"Such confidence," she smirks.

"I guess there's no one size fits all, here."

by **Miriam Bell** » Sat Sep 05, 2015 12:43 am

"Your subconscious thinks you're a Celtic goddess. I think we're past reassuring platitudes either way."

by **Samantha McManus** » Sat Sep 05, 2015 2:40 am

"And I guess everybody's been... supportive and all."

by **Miriam Bell** » Sat Sep 05, 2015 4:08 am

"That'll happen if you go talk to somebody who collects occult knick-knacks and tell them you think you're a goddess." she smirks.

by **Samantha McManus** » Sat Sep 05, 2015 5:28 am

"Yeah, well there's this British girl who keeps telling me not to panic, too." She smirks back.

by **Miriam Bell** » Sat Sep 05, 2015 9:02 pm

"But she'll probably smack you up the head if you start taking this at face value."

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Sep 08, 2015 5:45 pm

"Well I'm not, you know. I'm still going to go to mass and all."

by **Miriam Bell** » Tue Sep 08, 2015 5:49 pm

"I wonder how your subconscious feels about that."

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Sep 08, 2015 5:53 pm

"You've been there more than I have, aye?"

by **Miriam Bell** » Tue Sep 08, 2015 5:57 pm

"Well I don't mean to question your faith, but there's a distinct possibility that on some level you are, no?"

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Sep 08, 2015 6:09 pm

"In favor of what? Declaring myself a goddess?"

by **Miriam Bell** » Tue Sep 08, 2015 6:55 pm

"Taking anybody's subconscious mind at face value is probably a bad idea. But it can be symptomatic of what's going on beneath the surface." she says with a slight shrug.

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Sep 08, 2015 7:21 pm

"Well I'm not... feeling particularly pagan regardless, aye?"

by **Miriam Bell** » Tue Sep 08, 2015 7:25 pm

"And you didn't feel particularly naughty until you ran across your new friend either."

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Sep 08, 2015 8:27 pm

"And now we're back on that," she sighs.

by **Miriam Bell** » Tue Sep 08, 2015 8:46 pm

"You're embarrassed, I get it. All I'm saying is that maybe you don't necessarily always know how you feel about things."

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Sep 08, 2015 9:13 pm

"I'm sorry. I guess that's the part I'm having trouble handling. That I'm somehow a very different person."

by **Miriam Bell** » Tue Sep 08, 2015 9:27 pm

"Sam, what happened to you at Muir? How did you find yourself? Did you look at childhood memories and extrapolate? Did you look in the mirror of the mind's of those around you and turn yourself into who you're expected to be? Because it seems to me you looked everywhere but inward."

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Sep 08, 2015 9:44 pm

"I just... tried to get back to where I was before all this, you know?"

by **Miriam Bell** » Tue Sep 08, 2015 10:10 pm

"There's never a way back." she almost scowls. Somehow the conversation must have moved onto a sore spot.

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Sep 08, 2015 10:14 pm

"Well can you... blame me for hoping for one?"

by **Miriam Bell** » Wed Sep 09, 2015 2:20 am

"I suppose not." she concedes a little. "But that doesn't make it any less wrong."

by **Samantha McManus** » Wed Sep 09, 2015 5:05 am

"Look, I know I'm never going to be normal again."

by **Miriam Bell** » Wed Sep 09, 2015 5:26 am

"Normal. Please. But even if you could hand your powers back, you'd be different for what you've been through."

by **Samantha McManus** » Wed Sep 09, 2015 6:16 pm

"Aye, well... it seemed like a goal at the time."

by **Miriam Bell** » Wed Sep 09, 2015 6:39 pm

"Wishful thinking doesn't make for great goals." she mumbles.

by **Samantha McManus** » Wed Sep 09, 2015 8:06 pm

"What else was I supposed to do? Go soul searching? That's a wonderful idea, but I was just trying for functional, Miriam."

by **Miriam Bell** » Wed Sep 09, 2015 8:43 pm

"Sorry, you're right, of course." she says, although the apology feels a little automated. "Just... don't be afraid of leaving behind your crutch."

by **Samantha McManus** » Wed Sep 09, 2015 8:55 pm

"Don't know how much of a choice I really have. It sure seems like things are going to get weirder before I get a handle on it again."

by **Miriam Bell** » Wed Sep 09, 2015 11:43 pm

"And what exactly do you think having a handle on things means?"

by **Samantha McManus** » Thu Sep 10, 2015 12:43 am

"Less... surprises, aye?"

by **Miriam Bell** » Thu Sep 10, 2015 3:48 pm

"That makes some amount of sense." she agrees. "Just don't be afraid of yourself."

by **Samantha McManus** » Thu Sep 10, 2015 7:52 pm

"...work in progress," she smiles wearily.

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