The Monster That You Made

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 12:18 pm

"And there may be a time and a place for that. But we need people in our lives who are 'not wolf' as well."

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 2:41 pm

"Aye, well... your girlfriend's a lot of things."

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 2:49 pm

"Yes, she is," Tereza says, sliding off the hood of the car to put her feet on the ground. "And I think maybe some parts of me have been pushing you a bit too hard in their preferred direction."

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 2:54 pm

"...what do you mean by that?" She cocks her head in confusion.

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 4:09 pm

"Hon, you smell like wolf. Your ears are pointed. You look a bit toothy," she says, "Not that there's not a certain attractiveness, but..."

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 4:12 pm

"Sometimes I just come out different," she sighs.

"I mean, it was something I had to work on to get a 'me' with all these minds around me in the first place."

"Considering we just had a big conversation on me having an outsize influence here, why should I worry it goes both ways?"

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 5:37 pm

"Outsize influence is outsize influence," Tereza says, frowning. "If you want to be like this, that's one thing. But I'm frightened you're being this way because she wants you to be this way."

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 5:46 pm

"...love, you're one of the people I trust enough to let in."

"And that's all of you, her included."

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 5:52 pm

Tereza slides back up onto the car, "You're avoiding the issue. So maybe we need to set our boundaries better."

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 5:57 pm

"Why's it scaring you? Don't you think I could stop it if I wanted?"

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 6:00 pm

"No, I don't," Tereza says sharply, "I think you like it too much, the way the wolf does." There's a growl from Tereza's mind that's almost audible to the point that Tereza breaks for a moment to say, "Shut up." The growl subsides. "I've watched you fight. You revel in it sometimes. It's frankly scary."

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 6:01 pm

"...as pretentious as it might sound, I am a war goddess."

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 6:04 pm

"The Morrigan is not *just* a war goddess and I'm worried my wolf is pushing you to not be more than that."

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 6:08 pm

"Well I'm not going around starting them, am I?"

"Just... ah... finishing them."

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 6:10 pm

"Not the point, Sam! You know it's not the point," Tereza says, her frustration beginning to leak out.

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 6:18 pm

"Love, if she's influencing me then so are you."

"Or if you're not, you certainly can."

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 6:34 pm

"I don't..." She looks at the ground. "I don't want to. I've had too many people in my life try to influence me one way or the other. I should be a better child or I should be a better member of the cause. It sucks. I love you and I wouldn't wish that on you in a million years, even if the person doing the influencing is me."

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 6:44 pm

"Everyone influences everyone, powers or no. Everybody's thinking about what would please another person, or annoy them, even if they don't think they are."

"That's what I'm swimming in, all the time."

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 6:47 pm

"And you're asking me to actively pile bricks onto the load. I can't do that."

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 7:17 pm

"The point is, I can understand that I'm... a bit more malleable than most people. I told you, this is a best guess. It's what feels right when I do it."

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 7:23 pm

"And it doesn't feel right from this end, so we're at an impasse."

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 7:25 pm

She lets out a long breath, slumping down to lean against the car.

"...I don't want to fight about this. I don't want anyone to worry about me," she says quietly.

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 7:30 pm

Tereza looks at her, but for once she resists the urge to immediately comfort her. "I'm afraid I can't help you on the worrying. I'll always worry about you. But I can't continue to be the cause of what's happening."

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 7:31 pm

"So what's the answer? Push back even when it feels alright?"

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 7:33 pm

Tereza sighs, "No, I think the answer is that I need to give you some space. I've talked to Gemma about swapping rooms and she's agreeable, provided you approve."

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 7:44 pm

"Viv's gone and you want me to do this?"

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 7:49 pm

"No, I don't, but *want* is why we're in this spot in the first place. Now it's about doing what needs to be done. I'm losing *you*, Sam, and you're happily dancing down the path because the bitch in the back of my head is all on board."

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 7:51 pm

"And how is this different? How is this not you deciding what I need? What I should be?"

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 7:55 pm

"I fucking told Isolde," Tereza mutters, hopping off the car and making the vehicle take a subtle bounce. "I'm damned either way here, Sam. Either I behave like nothing's happening and watch the woman I love disintegrate into something unrecognizable in front of my eyes or I try to avoid that and get accused of making decisions for you. I fucking hate everything about this and I have *no* good solutions!"

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 7:57 pm

"That was... that was cruel of me," she sighs.

"I just... it's hard. I missed you and Viv so much while I was away."

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 8:00 pm

"And I miss Viv too and I have no idea when she'll be back. But she *needed* to spend time with Nimue and so I took her there. I don't like that she's not here. I hate it. But I had to do it and I have to shoulder her absence for her good, because it was what she *needed*."

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 8:02 pm

"I'm not... I'm not blaming you for that, honestly."

"It just feels like... everything's being taken away."

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 8:12 pm

"I hate that I'm doing that to. Sam, like I said, it feels like there's no *good* here. There's just trying to limit the damage I feel like I'm doing right now."

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 8:14 pm

"I know. I'm being selfish here, and it's not fair to you."

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 8:42 pm

"Would it help you to talk to her?"

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 8:45 pm

"Would it help you"

"Set her straight on everything? I mean... I've gotten you two talking before but... I never wanted to make her less. I don't want her doing things just because I say so. That doesn't feel fair."

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 8:46 pm

"She's me, or at least funhouse mirror me as Isolde keeps telling, so I don't know that she can be *less*. But she certainly doesn't need to be more."

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 8:49 pm

"I mean less than me. Subordinate to me. I don't want her to go away, I don't want to tame her. She's not a pet, she's a wild animal."

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 9:01 pm

Tereza ponders for a moment, "But like most animals, giving her easy food isn't good for her."

by **Samantha McManus** » Fri Jan 24, 2020 9:02 pm

"...aye. Gave her so much she didn't know what to do with it."

"Or didn't know where her next meal was coming from."

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