The Monster That You Made

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 6:04 pm

Says she never will. Even carved it into the throne.

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 6:06 pm

"What happened to Viv was my fault. I'm the one who was too weak to stop Cailleach."

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 6:10 pm

The wolf shakes her head. She says she should have felt something was wrong then. Blaming you doesn't even enter into the picture.

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 6:13 pm

"...how exactly is one supposed to anticipate me having an evil twin from another universe, who not only is a shapeshifter but can literally flow in and out of my own flesh?"

"If there's a brochure on that, I don't think I've seen it."

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 6:16 pm

Ask her. I regret what happened, but it is done and cannot be undone. She considered bending all her energies to undoing it, both for our mate and herself.

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 6:17 pm

"I think that would be a tragedy. I'd miss you."

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 6:21 pm

I will not pretend we are not dangerous. Any weapon is and she was created as much to be a weapon as I am. That she still can't acknowledge that weapons have uses is an ongoing failing.

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 6:22 pm

"It's frustrating that I can't just...fix all this."

"I mean, I could, but that wouldn't be fair to anyone."

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 6:24 pm

She would not forgive you for that, no.

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 6:24 pm

"Aye, no doubt there."

"So if we're getting there, we're going the long way 'round."

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 6:26 pm

Sometimes that is safer. Sometimes it's a waste of precious energy.

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 6:27 pm

"I don't think of any time with you as wasted."

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 6:30 pm

I wish everyone felt that way. She glances back towards the clearing.

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 6:38 pm

"We all do what we can."

"Are you going to be alright, here? I can stay a little longer."

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 6:39 pm

I will survive. It's what I do.

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 6:42 pm

"I know. Just too often we only talk when something's wrong."

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 6:44 pm

I see nothing wrong with what happened other than it getting me evicted from the clearing. It is wonderful to see you.

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 6:46 pm

"...duly noted," she snorts.

"I'll sit with you awhile in your den. To tide you over until next time."

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 6:51 pm

If that's what you want. She leads the way back to the den, curling up and making space for Sam in the shelter.

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 6:59 pm

"What kind of girlfriend would I be if I didn't cuddle you after a night like that?" She chuckles, settling in with the wolf contentedly.

Some time later, Sam emerges from Tereza's mind.

"Sorry for lingering there, a bit."

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 7:03 pm

"You do what you have to, I guess." Tereza stretches as she straightens up.

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 7:05 pm

"Look, there's something I told her that I want to tell you too. It's going to be a lot, and you don't have to answer back. I don't want you to feel like I'm just dumping this on you," she says as she stands up.

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 7:08 pm

"We're a bit beyond 'no dumping', so..." She gestures for Sam to continue.

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 7:12 pm

"I love you, Tereza. I know you maybe don't want that responsibility but I'm not sure there's any other way to say it. I fell for you, hard, and I don't mind at all that I did. Even when we fight, it's all worth it."

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 7:31 pm

Tereza's silent for a long moment, watching Sam's face. Finally, she speaks, choosing her words carefully. "I have one question for you, and I don't want you to take this the wrong way, but is it me that you're in love with or the wolf?"

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 7:32 pm

"Neither of you would exist without the other."

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 7:36 pm

That was obviously not the answer Tereza wanted, but she covers up the disappointment quickly. "Fair enough. So what now?"

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 7:38 pm

"Don't... don't bury that," she says, meeting Tereza's gaze.

"I'm in love with you. I'm in love with the wolf. I'm in love with all of you."

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 7:56 pm

"I will bury what needs burying," she snaps, frowning, "But since you're probably not going to let it go, I'm in love with you too, Sam. That's why you being in love with that funhouse mirror version of me is so painful. Because she's me, more or less, but she's not. And it hurts." She looks away, breaking the gaze lock.

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 7:59 pm

"So what is this, you want me to choose?"

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 8:13 pm

"No, because one, that wouldn't be fair to you, and two, splitting us isn't exactly a possibility. I'm just... fuck, I don't know," she sighs, burying her face in her hands.

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 8:15 pm

"I was falling for you before I even knew there was a wolf, Tereza."

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 8:19 pm

"As long as there's been an us, there's been a wolf," she points out.

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 8:20 pm

"Does that make it less real?"

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 8:27 pm

"Maybe not, but I can't help but wonder."

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 8:29 pm

"I just... it feels like you're accusing me of cheating on my girlfriend with... my girlfriend."

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 8:32 pm

"I..." She thinks about it for a long moment. "Kinda? Sorta?" She holds up her hands in placation, "Let me explain. Last night was amazing to watch in some respects. You were beautiful like you always are. But..." She chews on her lip, trying to figure out how to describe it.

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 8:34 pm

"But you were watching, not participating."

by **Tereza Rozanov** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 8:39 pm

She ponders that. "Yeah. And there was to some extent that it felt like I wasn't invited."

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Jan 28, 2020 8:41 pm

"And that's fair. That's on me."

"But what she asked of me? I'd do in a heartbeat for you. Give me a time and a place and I'll show you how much you mean to me."

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