by Miriam Bell » Sat Feb 06, 2016 7:30 pm
Miriam heads for the exit with Sam when the waiter walks up to them. Before he can say anything Miriam pierces through him with a cold stare as well as her thoughts. "I already paid and left a generous tip." she 'reminds' him, heading out the door without waiting for a reaction. For a while she just quietly walks alongside Sam through the streets of Maldon, occasionally taking a sip from the bottle of wine before passing it to her. The atmosphere is a little melancholic from what little Miriam's letting slip past her mental shields but at least she's not withdrawing completely while she works through whatever it is that's weighing on her mind, but she seems strangely at home in the dark streets between the occasional light shining from the windows of other peoples' homes. After a while they reach the little tourist part of the harbor and Miriam stops, staring out at the dark water that's quietly splashing against the wall of the stone dock.
"It's so exhausting, Sam... To keep wading through all these things washing over me from other people. Sometimes I'm so soaked, I don't know who I am anymore or how long it'll take until it'll erode me away. Or if it's already happening. Everyday I have to second guess my feelings... Is it me who doesn't want to go to class? Am I feeling jealous of someone? Do I care about someone or is that not even me? Sometimes I can't feel any solid ground under my feet anymore and I'm scared that what I think is me has already taken on things from elsewhere..." she says, taking a long drink from what remains of the bottle of wine.
"Other telepaths are easier. Until their green-haired friend starts to care about them. At least with Trinity I knew for certain those feelings were mine... I mean what else was I supposed to do but push you away? But you just couldn't leave me alone, could you..." she goes on, steadfastly staring straight ahead across the sea, clutching the bottle in her shaking hand.