by Will Stanton » Thu Aug 09, 2018 7:16 pm
"No!
..Yes!
...I don't know, Sam. It's...
You were so much more to me than a friend back where I'm from, and it's...difficult for me to navigate that, alright? It's not fair to you that I keep putting all these extra roles on you -- mentor, goddess, lover, boss -- that you never asked for and you don't want. Everyone else around here is different enough that I can kind of navigate through the waters, but you? You're...you're so fucking close and I just don't know what I'm supposed to do.
I don't know how to act around you, or Tereza, or anything, and I feel like...whatever steps I take are wrong. And they'll hurt you, and it's better if I just lock myself in the closet and only come out when called upon. When I call the shots, I hurt people. I am a bad person -- I'm really, really bad at it, and it's just more...more comfortable to fall back on the few things I do well."