by Will Stanton » Wed Oct 09, 2019 6:48 pm
"Well, yes and no. Sam and Nailah get things in their way, but, you know, it's very much their way. I'm playing a role when I'm over there as much as anything; it's just a different role from what I play with your mother, or with you, or with the teams.
What they do, and what you do, and what your mother does, is acceptance. And that's really great, and I love and appreciate it every day. But there's a difference between acceptance and understanding. They're related, but they're not necessarily connected. And...
...And it feels, sometimes, that the one person who really understood, in any real way, was Mel. How fucked up is that? The woman who kidnapped me, and...and tortured me, and subjected me to no end of indignities and torments, and who ultimatley sacrificed me as a pawn in her crazy, fucked up revenge scheme.. it feels like she had a better grip on what makes me me than anyone else ever has, before or since. Understanding without acceptance, aye?
And, yes, I know about Stockholm Syndrome, and we'll never, truly, be fully clear about what she put in and what she just pulled out, I know, I know. I've talked about all this, at length, with Dr. Clayborn. You remember, the one with the toupee you were not supposed to mention despite it being perhaps the least subtle toupee in the history of the world? Yeah. Lots of therapy, lots of counseling, lots of good talks. No real solutions, but then, it's not a problem with an easy fix."